Hell yeah

The Man from Earth for those who like good discussions, sci-fi and a low budget film.

"The movie gained recognition in part for being widely distributed through Internet p2p (e.g. bittorrent) networks and its producer publicly thanked users of these networks for this." So.. download without guilt .. and donate if you feel like.

Simple, good and interesting.

vendetta kind of mood

You got me in a vendetta kind of mood. You tell the angels in heaven you never seen evil so singularly personified as you did in the face of the man who killed you.

But maybe this is just three days' unhealed hangover taking over me...

I should work now.. but can I ?

Are you as bored of that crowd as I am?

The only problem with a "making friends" approach is that you don't keep the junk out and thus when you realize you are in some place weird, fucking bored and spending money in a failed attempt to have fun.
There's this thing I have about night clubs, every *fucking* time I end up in one I get bored and start to drink heavily in an attempt to fix the problem... fail.

Bored by flooding lack of meaning.

I didn't come here for the party... I came here for you.

Great and simple people!

After what would have been the most weirdest year in my life, I ended up here..
Ancona, paradise of ERASMUS' lost people.
Some are here to study, some are here to do nothing, some are here to have party and some are here to do nothing.

I could say:

All I see is emptiness
So much loneliness

but at the same time happiness and friendship flourishes on the superficial old layers, the one having friends here is the "comedian" me, we're still waiting for the ...dunno!

At the same time, works goes pretty well and interesting.
Prob is, is is starting to get boring! please fellas, lets work!!

Internet saves the day!!

My first quote

I could just put a link here but seems quoting the whole thing is more appropriate. For those who know me: you could call me Giacometti.

"On this bridge," Lorca warns, "life is not a dream. Beware. And beware. And beware." And so many think because Then happened, Now isn't. But didn't I mention the ongoing "wow" is happening right now? We are all co-authors of this dancing exuberance where even our inabilities are having a roast. We are the authors of ourselves, co-authoring a gigantic Dostoevsky novel, starring clowns. This entire thing we're involved with called the world, is an opportunity to exhibit how exciting alienation can be. Life is a matter of a miracle that is collected over time by moments, flabbergasted to be in each other's presence. The world is an exam to see if we can rise into direct experience. Our eyesight is here as a test to see if we can see beyond it. Matter is here as a test for our curiosity. Doubt is here as an exam for our vitality. Thomas Mann wrote that he would rather participate in life than write 100 stories. Giacometti was once run down by a car, and he recalled falling into a lucid faint, a sudden exhilaration, as he realized that at last something was happening to him. An assumption develops that you cannot understand life and live life simultaneously. I do not agree entirely. Which is to say I do not exactly disagree. I would say that life understood is life lived. But the paradoxes bug me, and I can learn to love and make love to the paradoxes that bug me. And on really romantic evenings of self, I go salsa dancing with my confusion. Before you drift off, don't forget. Which is to say, remember. Because remembering is so much more a psychotic activity than forgetting. Lorca, in that same poem said that the iguana will bite those who do not dream. And as one realizes that one is a dream figure in another person's dream, that is self awareness.

Taken from Waking Life.

Not being hypocritical on Pleasure Delaying

OTOH, pleasure delaying can be seen mostly as a virtue of the lazy or of the cowards.

But still, from time to time, one should afford to get lazy (or even coward) for some time.

"Slow down"

Pleasure Delaying Principles

Most humans believe they could achieve happiness with the achievement of some simple, fixed, goals. How it really works in fact is that evolution made them all:

1. Believe happiness exists
2. Always find something wrong, bad or, at least, unfinished in their lives (which makes them all, unhappy in some way)
3. Always find a way, at least theoretical, to solve those problems.

This simple characteristics work concurrently in a fashion that humans won't stop until they die. Exceptions to that can always be seen as a malfunction of this three vectors such that they are unbalanced.
What stems from all this is that we're condemned to be unhappy unless we recognize and start understanding how those vectors work; from that point on, you become a Pleasure Delayer. You start to get happy before the actual achievement of one of those "happiness goals"; you start to realize that what really makes a human happy is the process of getting something not the result at all. We are just like a running bicycle; equilibrium is only sustained as long as you keep it running. We're just orbiting around the happy place: always falling towards it but never getting there.

The nice thing about becoming a "Pleasure Delayer" is that it becomes totally addictive. See this way: one wants event "A" to happen and knows how to accomplish that but at the same time he knows that as soon as "A" happens he will move on to worship event "B" and since this whole happiness chase is time-consuming, costs money, demands hard work etc, he decides not to let "A" happen at all! Since he knows how to make "A" happen or, and THIS IS VERY TRICKY, at least BELIEVES he knows, he enjoys happiness in the "pleasure delaying" fashion. It is true that he will eventually get to "A" (or try to accomplish it and then discovering that he was, since the beginning, unable to) but through the whole extended time span he was indeed happy.

Other important factor that boosts Pleasure Delaying is that "Nothing is as good as you can imagine". After 99% of the accomplishments or you'll find that it was not as good as you expected or you'll get used to it and thus lowering its "value".

Pilot Heroes

Greatest profession of all:
Jet plane pilot!

Now I realize why most geek kids want to grow up into pilots: you always get to be a hero!

If you crash a commercial plane and everybody dies, they consider you a hero because the plane didn't hit any schools in the ground (even if it is during the night).

Cliché Post?

The idea of writing a thought driven post here started to reoccur a lot lately. Some of the environmental inputs that levered this idea are things like watching a couple of great, thought inciting, movies, some relationship problems, constant alcohol abuse and a foot massage.

"Nothing is as good as you can imagine"
Lemmas of this kind, common on the book "Choke" (by Chuck Palahniuk), keep bouncing inside my mind like metal balls in a pinball game; "what would Jesus not do".

Maybe it all started with this speech from Douglas Adams. At that time, since I was deep in studies, work and the relationship thing, I left heavy thoughts aside for some time. The day I found the speech I had the proper time to read it. From then, my mind has been laughing out loud for most of the things that happen around me. A simple talk with some catholic freak makes me laugh (inside) for hours. Plenty of my beliefs from before the speech and now are exactly the same. What changed is that, for me, those belief had become common place after some time. After the reading, I just re-realized how different I am.

Last day 12/31, I was drunk (or, at least, not sober) with a friend watching TV (white trash style) and it presented us with "The Bicentennial Man" (inspired by a novel from Isaac Asimov which I had not read till the time of this writing). I agree with all of you who might say that the movie carries heavy emotion appealing scenes. But the thing is, I bet that, if this movie is shown to a thousand ordinary catholics (including or not kids), plenty of them will think, at the end of the movie, that Andrew must be considered human. How could that be?
Douglas Adams' discussed several times, in the previously linked speech, how extremely complex beings or phenomenons can arise from, as extremely, simple organisms, laws or machine code instructions. What I see in the referred movie is a somewhat dumb and simple (maybe not that simple but you get the idea) household item becomes a human, without the help of any "god" or something like that. I recall that the movie points that Andrew "has something special" and things like that, but what I see is a simple malfunction that induces random things/thoughts that, together with good judgment, resembles creativity and human behavior (it is almost a "Montecarlo Method for Artificial Creativity Implementation", I should claim a patent on that!). But, indeed, followers of the "humans have something special" lemma (catholics), are not insulted by the movie at all. Would it simply be that they didn't get the idea of the movie at first place?

I've been spotting ironies like that for a while now. The real truth running on this people's mind is that (exactly as described at the speech), regarding religion, you don't think at all!

fucked up people!

*I'm leaving on a jet plane.
**This post shall be finished later. (Maybe getting to the foot-massage thing.. lol)
***I'm alive and well, I'm sure of that much!